Ashleyteng’s Says

I can’t stop myself from sharing this song to all friends that i know, the lyric is so simple and beautiful yet sad. The voice of the singer is very sweet too. In my opinion the composer is very good, cuz the melody is very heart touching. I’ve put this song in my profile too. Very nice. slow rock. enjoy

下雨天 - Lara

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
我不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
差别 结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

I can’t stop myself from sharing this song to all friends that i know, the lyric is so simple and beautiful yet sad. The voice of the singer is very sweet too. In my opinion the composer is very good, cuz the melody is very heart touching. I’ve put this song in my profile too. Very nice. slow rock. enjoy.

下雨天 - Lara

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
我不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴

其实 没有我你分不清那些
差别结局还能多明显
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

原来我也会有生气到流泪的时候。。。

别人都说：男人不该让女人流泪。怎么还是会有男人说出一些话让女人流泪，难道他们都不明白这道理？

不过这次还好，原来自己开始慢慢成长，已开始不会为了一些人嚎啕大哭。只敢面无表情地吸一吸气，让眼泪静静地流，让心隐隐得作痛，千万不能让别人看到。

对 不起，好象都有好几次我来 friendster 写 blog 都是要抒发一些闷在心里，但又不敢让人知道的心情，因为 friendster blog 好像比较少朋友会看，而且也不想在我的另外一个 blog 写这些，我的 blogger 可要保持开朗路线的。就让我来学做开心-伤心双面人吧。人不可能一直都要伤心，所以就让开心的一面出现在 blogger 吧。 这是我的” 开朗路线 blog ” –> http://ashleyteng.blogspot.com

这次又只好让 friendster 的网友们来分担我的心痛了。 谢谢哦 。

thanks for reading, really appreciate that.

except Saturday, everyday is a busy day for me. that also because i declare myself that saturday is a rest day or else i’ll go burned out.

Exclude class time, I’ve been sitting in front of laptop everyday. Trying my best to complete every tasks that allocated by lecturers and leaders. there were some time i’m the leader so report combining is my job. even though combine report is not an easy job cuz you’ll have to copy and paste here and there, checking the grammars, and validity of contents. copy paste is not a big problem, grammar is the thing that piss me off.

Last year, i realise that i really hate checking student’s Bina Ayat. Karangan better don’t mention in front of me. It really piss me off. exclude sentences like ” my mum is married today” or ” saya sakit esok” these type of sentence which probably create some joke that makes u laugh and cry on the same time.

so same case, checking grammar in group assignment report that sent to me really makes me laugh and cry on the same time. but sometimes when we have high expectations in assignment you won’t have choice but to check, because it’s all for our own good - the marks.

however, to check grammar isn’t an easy job. you might take up to 4 hours time just to check that 20 pages of report. So this is the thing that has make my expression change from “geram-ness” to motionless….

and sometimes even have to stay awake til morning, completed, binding, and submit. then rush to class again, trying to listen what lecturers say in class but you thought that the lecturer is singing some kinda lullaby.

people nowadays has a bad habit - do last minute job. eventhough we start doing it very early, it will still ended up last minute job. i do not deny that i am these type of person too.

eventhough u start very early, there are still some unwanted problems occur at last which make things go last minute again. what shall i say is that, let’s just accept.. accept all obstacles..

oh ya.. not to forget about “staring the monitor”. you’re staying up late til mid night or morning, trying very hard to complete the task or assignment, u stare at the pc or laptop monitor, reading and trying to correct the grammars, but no matter how many times u read the sentence u still don’t understand that particular sentence and u keep read for 10 minutes. so this is one of the reasons too why people ‘’stay up late” . the mind was closed, but the eyes is still open.  agree? hehe…

there’s another thing… accidentally sleep in front of pc or laptop. why this is happening? according to my survey and feedback from friends,

” when i sleep on the bed i keep think about the assignment wor… i can’t sleep!!! ”

” but hor… if i sleep in front computer lah, then only i feel relief cuz at least i try very hard to complete the assignment it just that i tertidur on the table ma… ”

so this is psychology ya? haha…

research shown that sleeping beside or in front of pc will bring serious damage to the brain and will affect human brain’s memory

i’m kinda worry cuz accidentally sleep in front pc happen to me already >.<

conclusion.. appreciate every sleeping time u have

this is crazee, i’m not involving in any event this semester, yet the busy is doubled up! i’m wondering why i haven’t get sick yet heehee >.<

1 assignment due date + 1 presentation + 3 exams in one week! T_T

for me the exams are acceptable, but the due date!! really cannot make it, especially when you have sooo many members in one team trying to complete one BIG project, it’s harder than expected, furthermore if you met with some situation where u keep reminding someone and he/she still wait til the very last minute.

presentation - have a very good leader, trying to arrange a meeting for us yet couldn’t make it, ended up do discussion on phone in the middle of the night, is that teleconference? >.<

exams - expected, sleep for 5 hours per day, almost everyday,  nvm it’s ok one! still got sleep mah! no sick also mah.. hmm!

Some fucking frustrating situation - i was leader, having A subject meeting with my members. here come a phone call "hello Ashley, please submit this that to me before this date ar…thanks… (B subject) ". Just right after a few minutes here come a sms " Dear all, please co-operate, do send this that to me before 12am… ( C subject).

>.<

some fucking frustrated morning - sleep damn late last nite because had been preparing for exams, early morning at around 8am a phone call come " hello? Ashley!! wake up already ar? u saw my sms that day? remember send me your part tonight har… "
me saying " hmmm… oh… ya… ok…" surprisingly i still heard what he said after i wake up again at 2 hours later. a phone call from my very responsible leader, i like this leader it’s ok, tahan lah.
after hang call, i saw 2 sms with same purpose " hi… Ashley… later i not going to class ya.. pls help me sign attendance" i exit, and pengsan go sleep again for 2 hours. wake up again and replied this 2 sms " sorry i also not going to class, i overslept, if possible help me sign also " T_T

and now.. i got my whole body pain and exhausted.. the legs, arms, ankle, shoulder, neck. i’ve done really enough warm up still these are happening.  i think these are the consequences of the 2 days badminton tournament, and a continuous exhaust since the paintball event.

i just realise, the real painful sports is not paintball >.< it’s badminton!!! T_T all the swollen swollen after paintball is not pain at all if don’t hit it purposely or anything, but the sakit sakit after badminton will feel pain at anytime eventhough you’re only sitting and not doing anything T_T good thing is i got the silver medal, the pain is quite worth it shall i say? somehow the tournament really need more girls in joining.

i’m just majoring in marketing management, no big project this semester yet the busy is still there, i’m wondering how will it be when the big project come -consumer fair  >.<
international business (IB) student having a big event this semester, first time in my life i see Queenie is so busy sampai 3 meeting per day heehee jiayou lorr

banking and finance student is doing some kinda big 100 pages report on finance thingy.. i can see the stress on peiling’s face. heehee jiayou lor…

coming week = another crazy busy week merdeka faster come, at least can busy at home, what to do bring everything go back kampung to do lor

i’m willing to spend half an hour for this just to rest a while,
Ashleyteng

记得有位朋友在她部落格里讲过

由少女变成女人的过程是很辛苦的。
无可否认有些少女都非常期待变成女人，总是认为女人很有魅力，很有女人味。但是一旦变成女人后，才发现那是要付出很多代价。。

女人有魅力，那是因为他们已经受尽了很多委屈与伤痛，从此懂得怎么掩饰自己，懂得怎么东山再起，从新出发。

女人和男人的确不同。女人是感性动物。女人最爱哭。

我也是女人， 我也爱哭。已经好一段时间没哭了，怎知道前几天又终于哭了。。。

我也被伤害过，
如今的我也好像。。。
看来我也需要从新出发了。

各种伤痛，只能留在心底深处。。。
lies… will make a scar there, forever.
but generosity, will keep it deep inside my heart.
why is it love change a person so dramatically?!!!

My responsibility to take up the piano grade 5 exam is finally completed.  really wish i can continue til the 8th grade… yet there’s obstacles,

nvm life is always like that, there’s always obstacles to get what we desire.

i’ll try achieve that one fine day.

wow i’m gonna miss Shah Alam i suppose? there’s not much reasons for me to come back Shah Alam after this, since piano lesson is stopped, since there are too many tasks in melaka.

or shall i find a reasons to come back Shah Alam next time? ya the kids need me in buddhist society.

as for old friends, no worries cuz for sure will meet up during long holidays

or the reasons for me to come back shah alam could be because of my dearest him here? i’m confuse

Many things happen recently, actually it was expected, it just that surprisingly the impact is bigger than what was expected.

to break up with loves one is hard,
to ask someone who loves you a lot let go of you is EVEN harder.
and i just did the second red sentence to someone about 1 or 2 days ago.

the one whom being asked to let go of her is surely sad, 
the one who ask for a let go suffers, because feel sorry for him.

please understand that she don’t mean to hurt you because she is hurt also, to ask for a let go.

H, you can find a more suitable one
don’t give up your singing dreams just because of her.

mood had been down for a few days,
Ashley teng

i miss my life as the primary school teacher.

couldn’t deny that i really love children and i love talking.

to see chidlren’s excited expression when telling a short story is something that i am willing to do everyday.

yesterday was the marketing management presentation in university. the feeling is just like teaching. the only difference is… (click on the link below and you’ll know why, posted with photos taken)

go to

ashleyteng.blogspot.com/2008/07/marketing-management-presentation.html

or

go to

ashleyteng.blogspot.com,

click "university life"

see the post with the titlte ”marketing management presentation”

i wish to involve in the education field, if there’s a chance again