Ashleyteng’s Says

Relief cuz the closing date for University application has just over

we only have 10 days to submit the online form or to change detail in it after submit.So within that 10 days i really

feel worry, cuz scare chosen the wrong courses or U

feel stress, cuz dunno whether will get

After that 10 days, i realise that i’ve forgotten about my DREAMS. within that 10 days i only think about my FUTURE, i’m now blaming myself for forgetting about my DREAMS.

i still have choices, but it’s not something that i really willing to choose.

is it that life is always like that? I mean we can only choose either dreams or future? is it really like that?

down,

Ashley_teng

All the while i had been teaching as a form teacher and had kinda get used to all kinda students problems like sick,cry,lazy to do homework,didn’t bring money to school,hungry,etc. And had get used to the job that have to distribute students newspaper at least once in a week,cracking my head to mark maths book,cracking my head to find a new way of controlling the students’ discipline during in class etc

1 day Mr Y come to me and tell me that there will be a big changes to my timetable and even the subject that i gonna teach! 1 week from that moment i’ll become only a BM teacher and will not have even a chance to teach my previous class already!

My immediate respond was like..WHY? BM only??!!And i can’t teach my class already.. eventhough BM???

Mr Y was quite surprise with my respond

i was quite surprise with my own respond too

collegue that sit beside me stare at me

and tears start runing inside..inside my eyes(not rolling on the cheek..hard to tahan doh..)

what’s the reason for the "tears keep running inside"?(not eyes allergic don’t misunderstood)

it’s because i won’t have a chance to teach my own class naughty students anymore

it should be happy right? it’s like a freedom to me that i don’t have to bother about my previous class’s problem already( sick,cry,lazy to do homework,didn’t bring money to school,hungry,etc)

But there is something like..err..like..probably a rope,which tie me up with them,tie my heart together with their heart,and it’s hard for me myself to cut off the rope,eventhough naughty students keep pulling the rope and make my heart feel PAIN..i think i gonna miss them..miss the pain

til today it’s the fourth day teaching BM,i realise that the new timetable is ACTUALLY like giving me a new life, i learn new things from it(it’s actually something that i had forgotten), like how to spell "satay" in BM,etc, (pai seh pai seh..)thank u cikgu F.Besides, i have new neighbour(cuz have to change position in office once timetable is changed)..this new neighbour very happy go lucky.. can joke around crazily! Miss W! she really funny doh! but then another neighbour is miss S,habis la no need to work d if keep on talk with miss S.

but anyway i’ll really miss my previous neighbour…the sarawak girls..the hair proffesionalist—miss K,miss C,miss L,all standard 2 teachers and standard 1 teachers—-who always taught me the moral of life(most of them are mothers), thank u so much.

eventhough still in the same office but just feel that the distance is quite far away…i’ll try to maintain the relationship..

love,

ashleyteng

I think students nowadays become mature very fast, only standard 2 or 3 and their topic are almost the adults’ topic.

One of them come to me and asked "teacher do you watch juedui superstar(a kinda singing competition which broadcast in tv)?"

"Yes, sometimes, why?"

"Teacher, who do you think is handsome in the top 24 contestant?"

"ok ok..sit back..do your homework"

"teacher, do you cry when they being eliminated? i cry when X(one of the contestant) eliminated ooo…"

"ok ok..have u done your maths? do it now please"

i was quite surprise with these question probably..erm last month.. cuz first time being ”exposed” to these students, but lately i am quite immuned with it already

another serious case,

i’m in my own class in 2nd to 4th period today.something funny happen, the ketua kelas(a girl) trying to adjust tie for the timbalan ketua kelas(a boy). the boy struggle (with paiseh type of laugh) and keep on say "don wan la! i thought da girl wil just let him go, but the fact is ..she keep on pull his tie and say"i help you to adjust la!" and everyone was like looking at them..

few weeks ago, i realise they were actually passing message through small paper… not very adult style of msg but it still…romantic…HAHAHAH! what a cute young couples!

they pass msg through small paper during exam, that time i was thinking they pass msg to discuss exam questions, but when i rampas from them and see, i was like keep on tahan my laugh cuz it’s not a question or what..but something.. romantic..haha!

All the best to you two ok? ha ha… i think i’ve choose the right ketua kelas and timbalan ketua kelas…kekeke

I saw this in my friendster bulletin board, found that it’s quite meaningful, would like to share it here with all my friends

kiss on the stomach = Im ready

~Kiss on the Forehead ="i hope we’re
together forever"

~Kiss on the Ear = Your my everything

~Kiss on the Cheek = "We’re friends"

~Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"

~Kiss on the Neck = "we belong
together"

~Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"

~Kiss on the Lips = I love you"

What the gesture means…

~Holding Hands = "we definitely love
each other"

~Slap on the Butt = "That’s mine"

~Holding on tight = "i don’t want to
let go"

~Looking into each other’s Eyes = "i
just plain love you"

~Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love
me"

~Arms around the Waist = "I love you
too much to let go"

~Laughing while Kissing = "I am
completely comfortable with you"

–Advice–

Dont ask for a kiss, take one.

If you were thinking about someone
while reading this,

you’re definitely in Love.

–Requirements–

Post this again after reading!!

Or you will have a bad year of
Relationships.

If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone
right now

and can’t get them out of your head

then Re-post this within One Minute
and Whoever you are

missing will surprise you.

Repost this as "what every kiss means"

i had been thinking, since when i don’t like holiday

i don’t really like holiday actually. maybe cuz i’m already in the middle of holiday( the STPM holiday),so eventhough i’m working for the pass few months, i still don’t feel like working. i treat it as some new experience

today is the 5th day of the school holiday, at first it’s very relaxing, and i got plenty of time to find out more info about local U thingy. but when come to today,the 5th day, i realise, it’s quite boring…i’ll feel absolutely boring staying at home for so many days. i prefer keeping myself busy in school with lots of task, talking with students during pendidikan jasmani time,rather than sitting at home eat,sleep and watch tv.

ahh…school holiday end faster please…boring

It was Sunday, but i feel that it’s exactly like Monday, too busy!

Early in the morning i went to school cuz there will be an AGM, all teachers are compulsory to attend. i thought it could be an interesting event, but it’s absolutely different from what i think.

9 am it begins, 9.10 am i feel like sleeping. "when will this end huh?"

right after AGM i rush to SABS cuz there will be a visiting to Pusat Penjagaan Kanak-kanak cacat Taman Megah for some of the teachers and students from SABS.

reach the pusat penjagaan

there were just too many things there that we never see before. some of them being tie to the chair cuz if never do so, they might hurt visitors. some of them look weird(as in different with normal ppl), some of the babies have weird bodyshapes where one of them has a very big head(30cm diameter), some of them have very small body, some of them can’t sit but only can lie on the bed.

besides, there were many normal children there, i felt curious " why normal children are here in "pusat penjagaan kanak kanak cacat"? since it’s understood that it’s for kanak kanak cacat only? later only realise, those children are dump children or maybe yatim

their personalities– they are really very friendly and cute. but some of them are just too friendly and they always want you to hug them, some of them will keep on shake hand with you and pull your hand and never let go. one will feel shock and scare actually. i shake hand with one of them(cuz she suddenly raise her hand to me) so i did it, and then she never let go and keep on pulling, luckily mummy help me

i had been thinking,why are they having these personalities.my hypotesis-they need something,maybe love,maybe someone who really cares about them,maybe..it could be anything. but eventhough many ppl out there very care about them, but they just come to the pusat penjagaan once in a while, not always, that’s why they feel lonely and feel like being left behind after outsiders visit them. i don’t know, this is only my opinion.

we bring up some songs like "are u sleeping"," bangun pagi","burung kakak tua" ,"rasa sayang", "yue ding(promise),"laoshu ai dami(mice love dammy),"sakura" etc. thanks to brother kok for playing guitar

left at about 4.30 pm

rush home

bath

rush to kl again, it’s a cny dinner. nice food, nice performance with lion dance and etc. but it’s quite boring, mummy(my right)talking to her friend that side, brother(my left) was boring too and he kept silent. conclusion, it’s BORING

it’s a tiring Sunday, but i felt that it’s very meaningful, cuz i got a chance to do something for those disable or handicap children( sing with them and bring happiness to them) hope there will be more visiting similar to this.

Tears, had been accompanying Teng for so many years, since the day she born, until today, 19 years later.

Teng still remember once she had cried for almost one month, because of some misunderstood thingy at school during upper 6. the thing can’t solve, and it last for one month, and so many people come and find her just because of this problem, she got so fed up with it cuz none of them believe her, only him, teng’s dearest club president, the only person who save her that time. or else she will never have the chance to sit for her STPM exam already. i mean almost lost the qualification to sit for it! Thanks Mr S. You a great leader!

After that incident, one kind of flower will make Teng feel fobia. this type of flower, a very romantic-style flower, is the very very basic cause of the misunderstood. Teng swear, she will never sell it again! She rather (for example) sell sweets or chocolates or any other snacks which will make people fat than selling a flower eventhough it’s very fresh and can make people smile ( sunflower will be better if for making people smile usage)

Because of this incident, teng has a new personality " teng hate being misunderstood"

Until today, teng met with another case. seems to be as serious as the case which she met during those days, but it also seems to be like "it’s just a small matter for teng"

but this big matter a.k.a. small matter for teng had make teng cry in front computer. she had been thinking and thinking, why tears, instead of computer is always her best friend? why?

that was already not the first time. teng had actually cried for twice in front of computer. first time was one month ago if not mistaken.

Her parents thought that she had become crazy, "why my daughter cry in front some non-living things(computer)? it’s normal if she cried cuz she lost her kitten(it happens few weeks ago), but why? my daughter cry in front computer now?"

her daddy standing beside her

her mummy standing beside her

her eyes is still sticking to the computer monitor

Tears, has become her best friend forever

It was the cny dinner night with all teachers of the school. It’s quite surprise when most of the ppl in our table are same age. i never know Mr Y also waiting for stpm result, so in the end there were 6 of us in the same table are students who are waiting for result..(Mr Y, Ah Mao, ZIHuei, LaiYee, Amy and me plus other teacher whom in same table are pangho,yunjin and others..)

dunno who say want to yamseng, so ok lor everyone take their drink, 1..2..3… **silent… then everyone laugh..

pangho back from dunno where.. then start to yamseng again.. 1..2..3.. "yam………..seng" ( it’s Pangho’s voice…swt..)

Then everyone start to take some wine..ok lor i try it..drink just very very very X100 little and i left the whole glass of wine on the table.. after few minutes, my whole neck,face and ears very pain.. they become red too..(apalah so "laoya" just drink a little ) and then i heard something really funny came out from huei’s mouth also..hard to explain but it’s really funny.. she become "red" like me too? dunno…heehee maybe…

picture time… snap snap snap…really snap many photos.. just for fun hehehe…

today finally met Miss Joyce… we were like meeting internet friend ha ha no choice we really get to know each other through net..not from school office hehe

the food was quite delicious… but suddenly the clock strike 10! wow so fast? and we eat for almost 2 and half hours? swt

the waiter bring us the wet-style-tissue paper, it wrap  in a red packet.. it really do looks like angpau seriously.. so my first respond was " who gave this(angpau)?" and Amy heard that..she laugh crazily…dunno who else at this side also laugh.. then only i found out..it’s not an angpau..it’s wet-style-tissue-paper..swt