Ashleyteng’s Says

owkay, i know i shouldn’t be here for i’ll be having Malaysian Studies exam tmr, well i really feel like blogging and my finger just can’t stay from the keyboard because they say "hey teng it’s been quite some time that you didn’t update blog about things that you’ve done these days"

nah it’s really hectic and busy week for me, i nearly no time for sleeping just because all the busy stuff that kacau me for so long time… anyway i feel happy being busy actually, i don’t like to be too free after all

first of all i’ve joined the debate group by mistakes, all thanks to kar seah and pei ling lor, well it’s good anyway, eventhough it makes me even more busy than usual, i’m happy to become one of the debater, as for my extra knowledge maybe

secondly it’s the Chinese Song Composing Competition (SCC) that gonna held in April 2008. it’s a really really great competition and i had been waiting for this so so long (too bad i didn’t record songs that i composed last time, so i guess i’ll have to compose a new song for competition) . i’m one of the committee for this event, i’m the vice leader for publisity and ticketing division, nah marketing again haha my major , my favourite!

next i have mid term exam lorr…. aiyo..

next is moral project lorrr…. wah that one is very interesting but it corrupt our mind.. our topic is "SEXUALITY AND PORNOGRAPHY" . guess what? we record a porn movie (-_-)!!! nah not a real porn owkay but there are still some ”boombastic” scene lah.. we recorded the SM scene…* oh my god i actually quite hard to believe that i was one of the main actor… lim kar seah you habis lahhhhh!!!! i was the SM victim of him in the movie, listen properly ok, in the movie only.

all these are more than enough to reduce my sleeping time.. wow that was my very first time that i sleep about 2 hours per day only.. T.T i think i nearly fall asleep when i walk to campus in the morning….

well.. after blogging, i think i should start my Malaysian Studies revision again.. wish me luck ya

thanks to the debate meeting just now , all the debate-style discussion had wake me up, so i guess i can stay up late tonight

Busy but happy,

Ashleyteng

Whoa today is the very first day i skip class in semester 2. why? because too many things to settle, all categorised under ”BUSY”!!!

funny rite? busy until no time for class? yep that’s rite, really too many things need to settle….. i really hope there’s actually 25 hours per day.

yesterday after class my moral group had a Christmas song singing practice, we’ll do some performance in orphanage today. ok after that was dinner, after dinner pei ling said want to discuss economy assignment with me, ok fine for me, for our group’s mark, it’s my pleasure to help her with her part.

after that i need to rush for world chinese debate meeting. man… said start at 10.30 but hi com reached around 11…. so by the time i reach home is around 12 already.

next, do preparations for tmr’s performance for chinese language society song composed group (the MMU MICROS)gathering. the preparations last for about 2 hours until about 2 am… almost all my housemate sleep already…..jealous lah actually heheh just joking

next, fill in PTPTN form T.T until 4 am… though it can be filled in the PTPTN briefing tmr early morning, yet i think it’s too many to be filled so i decided to fill it before tmr. what i expected was true, the other day (today) is really too busy and no time to fill this form at all T.T

and now…. i suppose to be in psychology class, but choose to rest at home cuz really too exhausted, i bet i’ll just sleep in the class if i attend it…

after this need to go orphanage already… T.T very tired…. after go orphanage, will have to go MMU MICROS gathering…. T.T

so now i better get few minutes nap before setting off to orphanage T.T

well…i think i’ll give up one society that i’ve joined, to at least reduce these busy busy…

thanks for reading

Ashleyteng

"i’ve learnt something REALLY precious today! that we must be very careful in choosing to be friend with who. to be close with who.

and what i understand from the situation that i’ve experienced IS, i can’t truly trust anyone more, at least from today on. family otherwise btw. "

in my point of view, when situation has reached this stage, the situation where your friends lie on you but you didn’t know, and you know it few days later, but it’s already too late when u know cuz you’ve did preparations for it, and these people have disappeared out of sight, to other planet perhaps, so the preparations is already useless.

well, my situation is, LUCKILY i’ve not lost what i have, at least i didn’t lost anything that’s precious for me. and i’m still having it, Lord Buddha blessing me all the while. yet the heart broken is still there, however i’ve start to understand what is " the time can heal everything up"

BUT BUT BUT…. things still cannot be done! that’s still what i’m angry for!!!

i really hope these people will get equal pay back that they should have, for because of not-responsible for what they’ve promised to do earlier, without ANY reasons that they should have tell earlier!

and these things will not have ANY solutions without them! this person is just like the key to open the door, this person is the only one having the key, and this person is now have disappeared out of sight! So what’s your says? not responsible right?!

sorry ,this is the real me, when i’m really angry

pissed off,
Ashleyteng

it’s the mid night of tuesday (morning of wednesday), nah let’s just assume it’s tuesday lah

hmm… it’s the 2nd day of my second semester… nothing much happen actually, still little bit relaxing and boring maybe.. but i’m sure that the damn busy-ness will strike us soon, when assignment allocated to us later.

two days ago, dad fetch me back to campus, mum came along too. we had some little arguement about very small matter, regarding some daily needs that i’ve brought over to my house in Melaka here. i knew they were really concern about me, but sometimes over concern maybe? that’s why arguement always happen. however things back to like normal again when i keep myself quiet, and things will back to just like before we argue, that’s how i stop arguement with them normally.

since last semester(my first semester in MMU), i had been crying for many times because of homesick perhaps, or maybe him i not sure. so i tell myself that i couldn’t be anymore homesick girl this sem, i must not cry like last sem anymore, so i try to tahan on the day when my dad fetch me here.

however, there’s something that almost makes my tears drop.

we went for lunch in a restaurant nearby. my mum and i take an order of chicken rice, my dad wantan noodle. after i finished eating the chicken rice, my mum asked(in cantonese) " enough or not? want to have more? let’s share one plate of wantan noodle ok?"

i was actually quite full, but still agree to mum, since mum also want to eat then okay lah just agree.

when the wantan noodle is here, me and my mum eat together( since it’s just one plate), after quite a while, she stopped and say " you eat lah ok? eat more ok? it’s been quite sometime that you didn’t eat wantan noodle also rite? so pls take more… "

arks… these words strike my heart, strike and strike, stab and stab… it’s really touching… oh why mum must say these words before they leave…arks… i was gonna cry already, but i’ve promised myself not to cry because of homesick or parents thingy anymore this semester. tahan and tahan… was trying to "swallow" the tears…hehehe…….

i realise something, no matter how often we argue with our family, no matter how many times we argue with them, they are still our most loves one.